I once heard a quote that went something like this, “Being a mom is the best reason to feel like crap all the time”. I thought, man, this person really hit the nail on the head with this one. I find myself thinking this all the time. Neil and I often talk about what we’d be doing if we didn’t have kids right now. I jokingly said to him one day that our biggest concern would not having enough vacation days for all the vacations we wanted to take. I mean, can you imagine how much money we’d have! 🙂 That is quite often followed up by one of the girls coming in and doing something sweet. Funny how God works in our lives, isn’t it? I wouldn’t have it any other way!
Lately, our lives have been so crazy. I feel like we’re always going….like the Energizer Bunny, but not so energized. Getting out the door to school is like a war zone. I’m yelling, at least one of my kids is standing around staring into space after I’ve told her 100 times to brush her teeth. Another is in her room changing clothes because she “just didn’t feel like wearing that today”. Hmmm, she must not have felt like wearing the other five outfits that are laying in her floor either. *sigh* I’ll get those clothes later and pull the total mom move of smelling them to see which ones are clean and which ones are dirty.
Then a few weeks ago as I was driving home from my mother-in-law’s from her bible study, feeling in a hurry to get home and make sure the girls were getting to bed and nurse baby and get her to sleep already thinking about how stressful the next morning was going to be when I heard a new song. I mean God really knows what to give you and when to give it. I rewound the song like three times on the way home and downloaded it immediately. When I got home I sent it to my mom because I knew she would agree that it was just what I needed.
Since then, I’ve been trying to keep this in mind, but gosh….it’s so easy to blame someone when things don’t go your way.
Then yesterday I read this blog post. Tears filled my eyes as I read this and felt like someone had been stalking me and wrote this about me. I am taking her advice on writing sticky notes to put all over my house to remind me that my kids are just that, KIDS. They are supposed to mess up and learn from it without feeling like they are doing everything totally wrong. I have to admit, this is going to be really hard for me to do. I can go from 0-60 in about a second. It’s that scenario where mom asks her kids to do something and they ignore her, she proceeds to ask them about 6 more times nicely and then has to yell at them and all of a sudden mom’s crazy. Uhhhh, really? Maybe I am a little crazy. Either way, I need to work on myself. As my oldest is approaching the end of kindergarten, I can’t help but think at how fast time has really gone. With each child, it seems to go faster and faster so I’m promising myself that I’m going to take time to smell the roses. I’m not going to lose my crap so easy. I’m going to take time to watch my kids play, laugh, mess up, learn, fail, and grow. And I’m going to pray every day that they continue to do all these things and that I continue to take the time to take it all in.