I know it’s been a while since I’ve written a post so I want to start way back in 2016 and update! It was quite the whirlwind. 🙂
Let me tell you about this God I serve. He knows what is best. He ALWAYS knows what is best. You just have to trust Him! Just reference Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”. This is one of many verses that I had to keep coming back to during 2016.
So to start this all out, in December of 2015, Neil and I decided that instead of trying to sell our house, we were going to really work hard on paying down some debt and then start saving for a good chunky downpayment for a new, larger house. We had gone back and forth on this several times and finally had come to agreement and contentment with this decision. We were pretty excited about it too.
In January we were trucking along and one night I was hit hard with a positive pregnancy test. WHAT???? How could this be? This was NOT in our plan. That plan to pay off bills and save for a great downpayment. That plan where Lila was going to kindergarten and we would only have one kiddo in daycare. That plan where our marriage was not ready for another baby just yet. We had lots of plans and Baby #3 didn’t fall into any of them. I struggled with this for weeks. I prayed and prayed and asked God to show me why He thought I could handle this.
Then one day it happened. I finally got it. He was telling me that I wasn’t in charge. No matter what I did, He was the one making the decisions. He knows what was best! He knew what plans He had for me. He was giving me plans for welfare and not evil. WOW!!! Why in the world is it always so much easier to see the negative than the positive. Sure a baby was going to cost a lot of money, take a lot of patience, and change a lot of things, but man, has she ever changed us for the better!
In late February, Neil decided to take a different position at the hospital. One that’s definitely been a lot of stress, but so worth it.
In March, we decided that we were going to proceed with trying to sell our house. We weren’t going to be super aggressive with it, but we were going to start the process. Our girls had separate rooms, but slept together every night and played in the same room all the time so moving them into a room together permanently wasn’t that big of a deal. We’d just move Baby into the other room. In June we looked at houses found one that we just stumbled upon that had only been on the market for a few days, I think. We went to look and immediately thought that this was the house we should buy. BUT we didn’t want to buy a house without selling ours first. We went over the options and decided to proceed. We knew at that point that God had all of this in His hands. I had already thrown mine up. 🙂 THE DAY we went to get papers started on financing a new house as well as our current house a nice lady stopped me in front of my house asking about it. After looking at a completely destroyed by kids house she made us an offer right there. If that wasn’t a God thing, you tell me what it was. He knew His plans for us and was showing us if we’d just give it to Him, it would all be ok.
In April, we found out we were having ANOTHER GIRL! What can I say, we know how to make beautiful girls!
In May we joined a new church as a family and it was so exciting. We love being a part of FBC!
So here we are, new baby coming in September (3 days difference in my due date and Lila’s birthday), closing and moving date in August, looking at a maternity leave after just buying a house…I was a little stressed. I found myself trying to pull back rely on myself and things would get rocky. As soon as I would realize it and rely on God, everything would fall into place. I’m not saying any of this was easy or we didn’t have to put any work into it, but with God leading the way, we were more comfortable with all these changes.
2016 was a lesson year. I learned more about myself and my faith last year than several years of my life combined. I have made so many good memories and so many new friends. I am so blessed! Even though there are days when I want to scream and it feels like everything is going wrong, I think back on all the things that have happened in the past year and realize how great things really are.
I want to thank everyone who helped us in 2016 in one way or another; movers, babysitters, teachers, co-workers, friends, all of you, from the bottom of my heart – THANK YOU for being a part of our life and making it so amazing!